HOW WRITING MY FIRST BOOK DESTROYED PEOPLE PLEASING AND EMPOWERED MY GLOW UP by Tamara Rasheed

In 2009, I wasn't prepared for all the fear and worry that popped up when I sat down to write my first book.

Fear shifts when you start writing your book.

You're not afraid to protect yourself and play small anymore. 

You're feeling the fear, the uncertainty, of stepping into your brightest light. 

If you're a new author, you might feel that fear and worry coming, so you have been avoiding being committed to writing.

It's scary to relive what you've gone through when it's just for the sake of remembering.

And if you've already started this journey, you're probably feeling like you're just crawling toward the finish line and have no energy for what might come next. Going through all of that is so draining.

But let me tell you why you need to jump into it even though you're afraid. 

And why you need to keep pushing when you're almost finished.

As I got started, I realized my fear was coming from the past traumas I had experienced and healed from.

I was getting triggered remembering those events and reliving the past - when that wasn't the point of writing this book. 

And that wasn't the point of going through all the things I went through either - just to be afraid.

Writing this first book actually inspired me to write more about my story, and I got the courage to write my best-selling book Breaking Free while facing those fears. 

I realized if I really wanted to make an impact, I was going to have to use what I had been through differently.

I was going to have to make things better with the same things I thought tore me down when I thought I was at my smallest in life.

I couldn't do that while hiding from it, and writing my book brought it all into perspective.

I was scared to say too much and tried to stick to the information I wanted to share only, but the book was cold and didn't really reflect what I wanted to share.

It needs you and your life to really make a difference.

I couldn't write more than 75 pages if I didn't want to include how my life was actually impacted or without really opening up my life.

Writing this book made me realize that I had dimmed my light my whole life. 

I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings by sharing my accomplishments or being my authentic self - and that was the trauma talking, not my future. 

Fear shifts when you start writing your book.

You're not afraid to protect yourself and play small anymore. 

You're feeling the fear, the uncertainty, of stepping into your brightest light. 

It's the fear that reaches out to the most courageous and brightest shining parts about who you are so that you start living fully.

You see, you're not becoming someone better than you were.

You're stepping into the awesomeness you already are. 

I hope this helps.